Welcome to this board.
Try to sit comfortably, please take a deep breath... Release. Repeat exercise 5 times. Document how it has helped your immediate mood/emotions.
Your 15 year old hormones are raging like mad at this point and no kind of decision should be considered under these circumstances. Not everyone at the KH is not "mean and judgmental".
Concentrating and accentuating the positive stuff in your life will get you through your crazy hormonal adjusting teenage years with sanity.
Welcome to this board. Navigate it very carefully.
SL